everything must die!

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! I just tried to turn off my TV and instead of blinking out, it displays this weird trapazoidal light shape and doesn't shut off! The driver side rear door guard on my car is starting to peel off. And I just returned from Apple to get my computer fixed - and who knows how long that will last...It's so frustrating because I like to think that I'm really careful about what I buy. All this shit is so fucking expensive in the first place, is it so much to ask that things last the way they were built until I get tired of them???

Okay, I know that was a bit irrational, but I just had to rant. I think I feel the worst about my car, because I spent so much time saving/suffering for it and everyone tells me what a nice car it is, but I just don't take care of it like I think it deserves and now stuff is falling off of it - not to mention there's damage to one of my wheel wells (haven't a clue how that happened, although I suspect my oil changers), and more stuff is squeaking inside as the car ages. But one thing I definitely have to get looked at is my seat belt. When I move around in my seat, if I move far enough, the seat belt retracts ultra slow...we're talking Jay Leno audience slow here. It sucks and it'll probably be expensive, too! Augghhh!!!

But of course, all this stuff breaking is making me worried about all the crap I've recently purchased. Maybe it's fate's way of telling me to slow down and enjoy the stuff you can't by. Speaking of which, I've also decided to ease up on all the stealing. After my computer almost fucking died, I was thinking that it was maybe karmic payback for all the pirated software I have on my system. I think I can easily say that I've made enough money on the apps that I have that I can at least start buying SOME of the software I use. I'll still "steal" music though! Fuck the RIAA - greedy bastards!!!! I support music more than I ever have before and I know bands make more money off of me listening to their music now than before when I would just forget about them.

So, lesson learned today? Hmmm...maybe buying extended warranties aren't the stupidest thing in the world after all, and I still gotta work on being nicer, and swearing less. Fuck.

ps If my TV fizzles out, maybe it'll be time to get a bigger screen or maybe a projector! Sighhhh...more expensive shit that'll possibly break and cause me stress. I'll never learn!